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:: Saturday, April 27, 2002 ::
NOW I HEAR THE SEXCAPADE WAS TWO COUPLES. i missed the gyrating! WHY DID I GO OUT THE FRONT DOOR DAMMIT!
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 3:05 PM [+] ::
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wow i missed a LOT of drama last night. not just the exhibitionist couple, or the bong crisis... but one of my friends almost got another one of my friends (a future housemate) beaten up by another one of my very large, very intimidating friends!!!! something about grits.... wtf?
i swear we toasted to 'no more drama'.
there was almost a fight back earlier at the bbq but that was some little white guy w/ an empty wine bottle threatening a group of germans who didn't like american hip hop. very strange.
last night i went to visit that beautiful boy to get this other dude out of my head. it didn't work. cuz i had a bad dream about him. all my friends were in it though, so it wasn't such a bad dream. but it was nothing like that dream w/ him and brad pitt and proxy mines. he was kinda sleazy and gross in it. well that just makes it easier for ME but the dream was really unpleasant.
dano never resurfaced, so i never got to go to coachella. well i saved myself $75. so i am going shopping w/ my old roommate and vickies is gonna be our number one stop!!
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 3:03 PM [+] ::
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DAMMIT i missed all the action! last night stephanie saw this large girl in a skirt HUMPING some guy a level down from the apartment we were partying at... REALLY HAVING SEX, right there on the ground.... i guess they walked right past the couple on the way to the next party but i left the building the other way. well i mean i am glad i didn't see it but it was a scene! i hate missing scenes! hehe
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 2:52 PM [+] ::
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today was fun! it was the last day of classes. then i went to malibu w/ terie and hung out w/ tons of people at james' bbq. i met a lot of people there, and saw people i've known for a while. i played tekken 4 w/ derek (my first time playing 4 as julia! and i didn't do too bad!) i got hit on quite a lot, and decided it was my red shoes. they are really good luck in that field. there was one cute guy, that i went up and said something to. he looked at me strangely and i decided he was high. he wasn't. later i was sitting on the grass eating my cheeseburger, and the dog was watching me. this beautiful boy came right up and started talking to me about the dog and so on. then we went for a walk. at one point he kinda started bumping into me, like flirting. but turns out he's like 3 years younger - and goes to school in san fran. so ... pointless! his ride was leaving and we planned to meet up later, kinda informally... but when i left eventually, i ran into a lot of detours. not bad detours but just reasons why i never made it to the places we were supposed to meet until he'd left them.
first i went to shane's and drank w/ his cousins and brother and steph and dano and terie. i had four kamikazis which we all 'toasted' to, a HUGE cup of vodka and orange soda i brought from home. i had fun cuz his cousins and stephanie are some of the few girls i can talk to around these parts. as the night went on, i ran into two more of the five USC girls i will talk to. not counting girls who graduated, left school, or i met at work. so it was a very nice bonding kinda night. it really takes me a while to warm up to girls around here.
stephanie got her contact lodged up in her eyeball before we even got to the first party in the area, so we took her to the bathroom. by the end of all that, we decided that party was pretty lame. so we moved on to party #2 on the way to our friend's surprise bday party.
dano made me another drink which was amazingly strong. i was having a great time. i ran into sooo many people and met even more and had lots of guys asking me who i was there with and so on. it was great! this is startng to feel like my old night life. it just took a while.... ian ran into molly who says she is going to be living in our townhouse complex next fall! yay so we already know our neighbor!!! she will be in the back unit while we are in the front, closest to the main street. still very cool.
poor wendy. her big surprise was SOMEBODY who i am not gonna name so he won't be embarrased knocked over her $200 bong. sucky.
i came home early (3ish) and went to visit the beautiful young boy i met earlier on. scored the digits, and gave him mine. etc etc. got a little affection, second weekend in a row - i'm back in the game!! ? it was actually quite nice. but nothing like what i had with the person i still really care about. it's all filler, but i am constantly looking to find something comparable, because i am not supposed to feel this feeling anymore. aber es ist sehr schwer. i mean, all ice cream is good. mmmmm but I WANT CHERRY GARCIA!!
he wants to see me tomorrow but turns out i probably won't be at coachella (which is why he was here for the weekend) cuz dano is MIA. we looked all over troy and the area for him, even at denny's! argh he tried to talk to me tonight but i was being all depressed and self-absorbed about a little run-in w/ some guy who played me. whatever, i'm basically over that guy anyways because he was w/ this girl tonight who was talking shit about him to my friend that she was also once kinda seeing. i actually invited her to come hang out at our house next fall cuz she was flirting w/ my guy friend (who will soon be one of my roommates) soo hardcore. i mean draped all over him, so ridiculous, but i was trying to help him score like a good cupid. but that guy i was interested in - first he is hooking up w/ a girl who was moment before in the arms of his roommate! and then he is back to following this girl who talks him down like so.... well if that is what he wants, he is not the guy for me. i did feel so terrible for him though, especially after i found out who she was. this is ridiculous, the same girl my other friend had been whining about for weeks, the one who caused him such grief. but i didn't dare tell the poor guy - he wouldn't believe me anyways. he'll find out for himself, and that really sucks. i feel shitty about it but i am not the one to tell him any of this. luckily he stopped reading my blog so i can tell you guys all the juicy gossip.
word.
i really need to weed out this drama. it is somehow magnetized to my ass, like i find people i think are drama-free and it turns out they are like everyone else i know.
QUEENS.
eh.
that is one of our toasts, too. no more drama. just hours before we lost dano. whatta evening...
nighty night!
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 5:27 AM [+] ::
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:: Friday, April 26, 2002 ::
i wanted lunch, so i ate the reuben i had leftover from monday night....
big mistake...
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:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 3:22 PM [+] ::
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poor danbaz (aka EVIL DAN). his backpack was stolen from his car trunk. FULL of cds, 48 of his best! and lots of private info, such as his SS# ! this is the same guy that had his favorite hoodie stolen from the laundry room last spring. and he left some sort of sign in there, like a WANTED or MISSING poster. at one point he thought he found it on some guy, and he tried to get it back. turned out to be a clone hoodie. but he made a new friend.
there is a lot of thievery at this school. well in this area in general. i guess it's WORSE if you leave the school. shane's laptop, jose's DVD player, kristin's phone battery (?), my jacket, cell and jonny block's keys last year.... etc etc.
jai guru deva om
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 1:15 PM [+] ::
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yee haw i talked to my greg again. he always cheers me up, makes me feel like a good person. partly cuz a lot of my really good memories involved him somehow. really strange. and he gets along so well w/ my brother that he is like my second brother. not too many of my friends from home have even been down here to visit. greg has been here TWICE! once for my birthday (4th of july weekend), to see weezer and bbq and swim at the beach and go to disneyland w/ my brother and i. he was so much fun to have around, and i was sad to see him go.
i used to have this HUGE crush on him, he was the love of my life mostly from 1991-2000, off and on. i always had him in the back of my mind. and he accepted that in a way, knowing that my feelings for him would not hurt him in anyway, and that we could both do our thing without worrying about it. it was all OK. but somehow things kinda played themselves out and now he is a good and trusted friend. i think i shifted him from the love-affair category just in time, cuz now he has a baby! cuuute baby. i still love him, and i still have all the same feelings for him. just now i realize they were more feelings of adoration and not HOT HOT HOT feeling. like he makes me smile, inside and out, and that is where he belongs. he is basically someone i am in love with but i dont want to have anything sexual with. or it's above all that, like a love above anything sexual, where a few of my really good friends are. transcending bodies, melding minds.
after all, i am much more comfortable in my mind than in my body.
i also got an email reply (or three!) from my good friend major tom from home. well he was once my good friend, and also one of my past romances.. a really really happy one. but we kinda moved on to our own things. but i think about him a lot, he is also part of my great memories file. dancing, singing, playing games, concerts.... road trips!!!! fun fun fun. i got in touch w/ him just in time cuz he is graduating from the u of washington (where i was *THIS* close to enrolling), with a degree in graphic design. i'm sure he's gonna be fine in life, he's got a good head on his shoulders, and he is one of the most creative people i have ever met. EVER. i really miss that guy.
I MISS EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW. i feel like i must be DYING soon or something cuz i'm remembering all this wonderful stuff suddenly, like it's time for me to sum up my life and figure out what i learned from everything, just in time to get hit by a bus.
shit. that sucks.
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 1:08 PM [+] ::
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i wish i had a sleeping bag. i would go camping this weekend. by myself. i love going out and exploring, getting all dirty, slightly sunburned, etc. and at the end of the night when i'm exhausted and starting to get cold (and my sunburned face starts burning up), i get into my sleeping bag and it's so nice and cozy, and the air is fresh.
oh wait, i live in LA.
sucky.
one weekend back in WA state, we camped at the edge of a forest, right at shores of the straits of juan de fuca (basically on the pacific ocean). we hiked and explored every day. we went out to some gigantic rock on shai-shai beach, it was full of tunnels and crustaceans. we cooked meals on the fire, including this can of chef boyardi ravioli (dawn's idea). we made up stories, sand art, and even sent a bottle out to see (and eventually received emails from the guy who found it, a hundred miles away). at night we played capture the flag on the beach by the light of the moon. our flags were shirts that we'd tied to the tops of branches we'd stuck into the sand. moonlight can really play tricks on your eyes, and some things looked pretty scary out there, but it was fun running and screaming and hiding behind logs. there were three tents, but two of them were 'private' couple tents, so six of us were huddled in the remaining tent, talking nonsense until we all fell asleep. we would brush our teeth and wash our faces in the stream, and tie our food to a rope that we hung from a tall tree branch (damn 'coons). and it was fun. back then i always had something to do, someone to do it with, and someplace nice to be. we'd play risk, nintendo, trivial pursuit, cards, anything.... living in a small town, you have to be creative. nothing was open past 6pm except safeways. i never had any money back then, i was always paying for gas with coins. but it was a trade-off. it was peaceful. i could go out and find somewhere to be alone. truly alone. i could go somewhere w/ my friends to trade dreams and ideas. everyone had the energy i did, they all wanted to keep moving and feeling and exploring. i knew everyone in town, and they knew me. that is cozy but it did get annoying.
once i was talking to this guy on the phone a lot, and for some reason we ended up not dating. i think he was a little too young. but a few weeks later, it turned out he was my cousins.
that is my town. i didn't dare date ANYONE until i did their geneology... well it wasn't THAT bad but it was pretty close-knit.
i feel stifled.
i need to start moving again.
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 2:34 AM [+] ::
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if i stop blogging, you will know my roommate finally did me in.
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 2:09 AM [+] ::
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i am so damn tricky.
my ethernet cable has been broken for almost a week now. before that it was just really janky and moody. i thought it was my jack. until i stole my roommate's cord one night to see if her jack worked.
the thing is, my desk was relocated to the frontroom before i even moved in, so my cord goes through the entire house to give me net-power! and i had two cords (one terie made me, one i used for two years) and a connector. i took the connector apart to see if that was the problem. and you know me, when i start tinkering it is not pretty.
finally i took the cord from the jack below my bed, out the window of my room (my bed is next to the window yeehaw), and in through the balcony door (my desk is also by a window yeehaw). so i didn't need a connector anymore. but that also meant tinkering with my window screen and bars, which seem to be suffering now.
to make a long story short.... (too late!)...... EUREKA i've got a connection.
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 2:07 AM [+] ::
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my roommate is talking to herself again. she kinda creeps me out. then every now and then she slams the door. like when she talks to herself, she gets in a fight... with herself. or something...
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 2:01 AM [+] ::
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:: Thursday, April 25, 2002 ::
PARTIES tonight : )
and all weekend for that matter.
mwahaha.
and i've got on my devil-red lipstick.
sheeiiiiit.
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 10:17 PM [+] ::
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we made up a movie idea for shane tonight, while drinking and playing clue.
ELIMINATION CLUE.
kinda like survivor and weakest link. where we VOTE each other off the island.
john was the first to go. he started getting careless in round six....
jordan was the weakest link.
peter got drunk and started telling everyone his cards.
sad.
one guy was here and didn't realize we were all mocking him, so he joined in w/ the fun. so we were all laughing, is that bad? i mean HE was also laughing and having fun.
peter said something about getting a piece of my poontang so i slapped him.
slapping peter is fun. but then he started pitching a tent.
and then he farted.
i think i saw something.
and now i am going blind!!!!!
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 3:16 AM [+] ::
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:: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 ::
oh let us go back to my comment on 'hottified'....
example:
'after she got her hair straightened, she became 75% hottified!'
'she got drunk and he became hottified.'
'what, did you think you would suddenly become hottified if you stopped eating three cheeseburgers a day? you's a damn fool!'
something like that. it's better when you are being sarcastic, talking about someone who was hottified when we all know they's fUGLY.
word.
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 1:39 AM [+] ::
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peter treated me, jordan, shane, and terie to MEL'S tonight. mmmm. i ordered the same thing as last time, but helped them eat the onion blossom thing. we were talking about where we'd all be in the future, and they keep trying to VEX me w/ jordan IN HOLY MACARONI. yes disgusting. i will NEVER marry jordan EVER. then eric amaya (prickle...ugh), KAT (homely big mouth chick), VERA (neurotic mess of a hot chick), etc, came in just after we started talking about kscr shows. how fitting. eric pointed and then went to the restroom. i was ready to run.
i am parked in the back lot of an old house that no one lives in. i hope i don't get a ticket cuz the BOOT is drawing near. it should have already happened, someone messed up. but there was no where else to park anywhere from here to adams. so i took a chance.
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 1:27 AM [+] ::
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:: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 ::
i made up the word 'hottified', at least within my circle, and somehow it has caught on like wildfire! WTF!!!! hehe. of all things for me to start, why THAT word???
i got my summer workstudy ($2500) so i will be working for USC childcare all summer. i am thinking i may only want to work six hour days, and when my brother comes, only 4days a week AT MOST. i somehow got a raise between when i quit the daycare and when i came back to work. in aug 98 i was making $6, and now i make $7.75. which is not good but it's really not bad for a job i like. i started my BUDGET cuz if i am gonna skimp on hours (last summer i worked AT LEAST 40hrs/week, like two summers ago), and have time to go visit in washington and chicago, i need to plan what my payments are. i have til sept planned. this will work. i just have to keep my fancy stuff down. not so many concerts, eh. less driving = less gas $$. i am thinking i will wait til aug to go on my trips, cuz that is when it's waaay too hot here. and i have some time between summer/fall housing so i will need to stay somewhere. so after my family leaves for graduation, i am gonna get into work mode for a while until june when i get visitors : ) anyone wants to come visit, you are welcome. i will have my own room and it's gonna be pretty big!!!! and my roommates are all funny people.
i love ceci. she is my friend at work that brings me candy. today - peanut m&ms mmm.
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 6:44 PM [+] ::
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i have a problem w/ being hyperanalytical and overly sensitive. part of this is because sometimes i am this way and it really pays off. i can see things that will happen and the 'better safe than sorry' logic comes in. but once in a while something slides by that will eventually catch me off guard. and when one thing shakes my world up, i have to start all over. kinda like jenga. i love that game. i dont' want my life to be a tower full of holes, waiting for the next block to be pulled out. i want to start over!!!
it is hard to tell if i am predicting something that will actually come true (no i'm not clairvoyant, i think i just see patterns in everything and it somehow falls into place) - or if i am being overly-cautious.
truth to me has been some bad things that i dont even want to think about. so anything i find to be paranoid about may seem so obsurd and over the top to most people is not even half as bad as what i have actually SEEN or known. i know a lot of people have it worse, and that really sucks. but i don't let the worst part of what i've seen get to me, i block it out by expecting silly shit to happen to me like getting backstabbed or being lonely. i mean these are just feelings, things i SHOULD have control over. but they are somehow controling me. and i dont want that anymore. i often remind myself how these things work in my head but usually if my life starts spiraling as it had been this semester, with work, love, family, roommate, and health problems getting out of control, it is hard to keep things in perspective. but i am really trying. i am trying to weed out the stuff that is drama (not fun drama, like singing and playing games, but true-to-heart drama that really ends up hurting people). sometimes i figure this stuff out too late, and i lose things i really care about. to lose something you dont even know you have is sometimes the hardest thing, after you find out that it is gone. this is not regarding anyone specific, at least as far as my readers go. this is more about something that you feel is a part of you and a part of something bigger than you, something that could change your life. an example is something we all take for granted - our fertility. a very close friend of mine loves children. she takes care of other peoples' children every day, and i see her look at them and i know she really truly cares about each of them and not just about doing her job. but she has been married for three years, and had a few miscarriages. one after four months even! four months, that is a long time to have something become a part of your body and thoughts and then it is gone. she is still trying to have children, but is becoming more interested in divorcing her husband than getting pregnant. and maybe this is because things at home are stressful over this. all i know is she would be a fantastic mother, and wants to be, but she has not been given a chance. meanwhile i hear stories of terrible abusive parents and i see parents who are too busy to have kids bringing them to the daycare while they work, 8-6pm even!!! she wants a child so badly and sees these other parents just pass their kids on??? and i wonder if she feels like it is her fault, like she could do something differently, like she is to blame for losing a life. i had always hoped that i would never know what it was to feel this. and i still hope that no one else has to endure this, even though i now see how often it happens.
BUT the weather is great and today i drove on the freeway to pick up something from my dad's and realized - this is SUMMER! driving on the freeway, listening to music w/ my windows down, hair blowing across my face. NO TRAFFIC. well summer here usually involves a TON of traffic but today was great!
my brother is coming for my graduation. things are looking up. i just have to make it to may 9th (DISNEYLAND) and i will know it's all ok. this is my third summer here, which also makes it my brother's third, so maybe he will feel a little more adventurous. he IS technically a teenager now! maybe we will find an even better game shop this summer than the last!!!
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a few girls i know and i want to get together to make a 'directory' of guys we've 'been with' or dated or whatever. ohh yeah this is gonna be juicy. basically it's gonna tell the rest of the girls who to WATCH OUT for, and tell guys who to watch their girl around... hehe. yes, it will included MEASUREMENTS and inventory of da skillz. watch out! yes, we DO kiss and tell. ALL THE TIME. i know about guys that i have never even THOUGHT about kissing because someone told someone else who told my cousin who told... you get the picture....
i need one of these. a few of my ex-flings keep calling and emailing and visiting, and i am trying to remember WHY i got rid of them. i must have had a good reason, and i don't want to find out the hard way. again.
we played clue again. me, peter, shane, jordan, terie and dano. the STUPIDest thing ever happened. not only did jordan LIE to everyone by passing on the REVOLVER card that he had. but he ACCUSED mrs. white WITH the revolver, the ONLY weapon card he had, in the billiard room! HE ACCUSED A CARD THAT HE HAD IN HIS HAND, and LOOKED IN THE CENTER PILE, was proven wrong, AND LOST.
idiot.
ok maybe this makes no sense to those of you who don't care about clue. but we get REALLY into it. yelling and stuff. i mean it's all in fun, but it gets really intense.
terie made strawberry cake w/ PINK strawberry frosting tonight. mmmm his cake is getting better and better, soft and fluffy mmmm (not that strawberry is my favorite, but that is PETER's fault, he picked it out!).
i tried to call my dad cuz i fixed his email account but the number wasn't working. well maybe i did it wrong because the number is written twice, and one looks all wrong. but i tried them both. it uses a lot of minutes on my calling cards cuz it's so far. even more than the UK!!! i hate calling long d like that. word.
turned in our apps, lease, and deposit checks for our six bedroom on menlo, and i can stop thinking about it : ) yay finally.
'i wake up to the sound of music mother mary comes to me
speaking words of wisdom - let it be'
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:: Monday, April 22, 2002 ::
party at james' on friday!!! he has that nice piece of land up in the malibu hills, and he's a great host. we just chill up there, closer to the wilderness than USC but close enough to the grill to avoid hunger. mmmm cheeseburgers... he had a ton of dr pepper last time, and beer (but i was 'the driver' wink wink). tennis, ping pong, a CLIMBING TREE, lots of room to explore. we met dick van dyke's dog last time. cool man hehe.
hope some of you can come, i have the directions if you wanna email me.
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"you never give me your money
you only give me your funny paper
and in the middle of negotiations you break down.
i never give you my number.
i only give you situation.
and in the middle of investigation i break down.
out of college money spent
see no future, pay no rent
all the money's gone, nowhere to go
any jobber got the sack
monday morning turning back
yellow lorry slow, nowhere to go
but oh, that magic feeling - nowhere to go
one sweet dream
pick up the bags and get in the limousine
soon we'll be away from here
step on the gas and wipe that tear away
one sweet dream came true today" - - beatles, you never give me your money
oh cute cute cute.
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 8:55 PM [+] ::
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johnny utah sent me one of his songs!
you may notice if you listen - he is using his computer mic to record so use your imagination. : )
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 8:37 PM [+] ::
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HAHA jordan and i are singing some cheesey love ballads with peter. ooh fun.
so today shane was supposed to pick up his 'preview'. he was MIA but peter heard the message on shane's machine, so peter, jose and i went to find the poor kid. but he had already found a home so we didn't have to take this kid back w/ us. that could be for the best though. they said they appreciated our concern, which was nice. the funny part is they had lots of EVK vouchers left (they give a free dinner and breakfast to the host of prospective students, so they can go to eat together while the kid is here). so the three of us went to EVK and had all we could eat shit. it was great. the best part was the fudge-sicle that i got to eat on the way home. mmmmm. free is free! the best part is JORDAN didn't get any cuz he wouldn't walk w/ us to get the poor abandoned kid who wasn't actually poor or abandoned, luckily, so he didn't get any food! mwahahaha.
i had heart to heart w/ peter today. we talked about a lot of stuff that is going on w/ us and our friends and he WASN'T PHONY. general concern! that is amazing!
i am getting back to normal and rebuilding some friendships that have been suffering. i have energy again. i feel alive. maybe some day i will tell you what REALLY happened to me last month. maybe. : )
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yesterday was 4/20. now i am not one too think much of such a day, because alcohol is my drug of choice. BUT i was offered some special pizza and garlic bread, and i didnt' have much else to do. the weird thing is, this was not a usual high. i was tripping ballz. i felt more like i was on shrooms. it was really similar to my ayawaska experience. i definitely had a different perspective than usual.... a friend of mine invited me over for ham dinner, which was cool. but unfortunately i was at my peak around that point so i didn't do any socializing. i dont think. i kinda hope i didn't socialize cuz i am not sure what i was saying. hehe.
i had quite a confusing event happen this weekend. well, i guess something happened that both humilated and hurt me. i have a problem w/ chronic optimism. i mean i am a huge worry-wart, but most of the time i have an underlying feeling of hope. once in a while i lose track of this hope and it's kinda disasterous. last week i kinda grounded myself. a lot of plans had fallen through, a lot of dreams lost. disappointment. but that's how life works for people with big dreams. we get disappointed once in a while. this is how it goes until the day we die - one final disappointment. well i let myself believe in yet another thing this weekend that was absolute nonsense. i saw potential somewhere that i guess i had no right looking. it was more like the slip of a tongue, where i accidently stumbled upon a very nice situation, only to find out i was in the wrong place at the wrong time, just thinking it was ok. it was something i had wanted to happen, then had given up on. so i didn't really believe it when it happened. and in a way i guess i can go on not believing, because it was a little too good to be true. but i was caught off guard, so looking back i can see how stupid i was to believe that something was more than an accident. i am a weird person. i know that. so when i make friends w/ someone i really connect to, even if only in certain areas (no one agrees with EVERYTHING i say, but it's nice to feel normal sometimes...), i really appreciate this friend. i enjoy relating to someone on any level, just to feel a certain comfort opening up to someone and so on... i mean i have a lot of friends but there are certain traits that really comfort me, and right now i really need that, i need good feelings to surround me.
shane filmed another movie today. stephanie, shant and i, with this guy chris as an 'extra' hehe. then we went to cheesecake factory w/ the rest of the crew. mmmm lots of good food and good talking. and we got to sit out by the fountain again! : )
i won't be blogging much anymore cuz my computer doesn't seem to want to work, and the person whose computer i'm using thinks i am selfish. i can name 100 things i have done without expecting ANYTHING back for this one person alone, but no - i'm selfish, so let's not go there... : P
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