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:: Saturday, July 20, 2002 ::
thurs night shane showed up so i went to mccormick's w/ him, terie, jordan, and jake. i had a yummy cheeseburger and fries, some funny conversation, then came back to watch beatlejuice w/ faust, while i did laundry. i had to do laundry because my yummy cheeseburger got me sick and i got some 'sick' on my pants as i ran into the bathroom back at home. at least i made it to the bathroom. even though my new medicine makes me nauseous, i think the feeling was more of a 'i should not have more than one beefy burger a day' cuz i had the new carl's jr grilled onion bacon cheeseburger for lunch. i don't eat all that much red meat so it was not a happy evening.
friday i didn't work cuz i have appointments on friday, and cuz i worked too much this week and i didn't want payroll to get mad. i did a lot of dancing in my room and working out, and now i have abs. wait til you see 'em. i picked shaun up from down south and as usual had a good time w/ him. he is one of my FEW low-drama friends, someone i can count on to be straight up COOL and not start shit. word. we had jack in the crack cuz jake was eating it in the frontroom and we got jealous. we got back and dano was here, and HE wanted jack so i went back w/ him to jack and then to 32 to get whisky (dano is in bartending school and makes interesting stuff now), and when we got home the house was full of shane and the people that used to live w/ him. we were finally ready to go, and shaun, shane, jake, and dan piled in my clown car and we drove to a party abe called me about, the onee where that whole mess that got me uninvited to someone's house happened. and yes he was there again but i PURPOSELY avoided him after the initial smile and wave.
my friends got COMPLETELY drunk off of whisky sours and it was fun to dance w/ them and these hoochie mama's that were gyrating all over the house. we got jake to dance, it was soooo cute. everyone seemed to be there, even heffe and his pal dan showed up, and a bunch of people i ran into at the 9-0. the two hottest guys i have ever kissed were there, and luckily i am still on good terms w/ both of them. not ALL guys are assholes after the fact. this one guy was on me like flies on poo and my first response was to wonder why ANY drunk guy at a party would even CONSIDER talking to the only sober girl there. the hostess was as friendly as usual (she used to live by me, freshman year), and most of the people there were pretty friendly. she throws fun parties, and we were there for three djs. when we left, dano had earned the nickname 'kegstand' - go figure.
we all went back to my place and ended up watching 'bring it on'. i actually LOVED that movie. maybe i was just tired. afterward i thought it would be a good idea for us all to go practice our cheer routines outside. they left me and went to denny's. maybe they were right. i should give up my position as captain - NOT! hehe. well the GUY was hot... mmm....
i did score some digits tonight, but they were from BEFORE we even went to jack in the box. i invited an adorable guy to come out w/ us tomorrow, as a FRIEND cuz i am not fool enough to try and get my mack on anymore : P and he gave me his CELL #.... i think i fell down the steps after that. i'm not sure. i most likely WON'T call him tomorrow cuz i'm a big chicken but i will eventually. go me.
as for tomorrow - i have five or so parties on my list. i would be happy w/ two i guess. most likely gonna go to a bar in westwood to celebrate a sweet girl's 21st bday in style. : )
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 4:30 AM [+] ::
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:: Thursday, July 18, 2002 ::
well monday i was sick all day at work and i was completely miserable. WHY ME!! ehh... but monday night i tried to be good and stay home and relax. i am not sure what i did, cuz i was too sick to think clearly. i just cant remember.... anyhow before bed i called into work cuz i knew i wouldn't be feeling ok by 10am the next morning. i tried to sleep but i just sat up in my bed, watching tv. i fell asleep sitting up because i couldn't breathe laying down. it wasn't like i was coughing much or stuffy, but it was lower, in my chest, like my lungs just stopped working. and i was achey. i thought i was having some sort of allergic reaction, it really sucked.
tuesday i just sat and watched tv... all day. i watched hawaii five-o and hill street blues w/ jordan. i kept making myself eat even though i wasn't hungry. i needed to take vitamins and eat apple sauce w/ cereal on top, pasta and broccolli leftovers, and tons of juice. I AM NOT MISSING MORE WORK FOR THIS COLD, i NEED MONEY. heh. i watched drowning mona, one of my latest $5 video purchases, cuz i think bette middler is ridiculous in that movie, and jamie lee curtis was nice and trashy, w/ a foxxxy fem-mullet going on. i painted my nails and toenails a metallic lavendar. very chic. : P
jordan went w/ me to my dad's that night, to get my mail. i walked in, said hi to my dad. he didn't even want to look at me. so i said "don't forget tomorrow is roxanna's bday", got my mail, said hi to sandy, then left. booooooo.
wednesday i got up, packed a little lunch in my purse, and headed to work. i was determined to be over my cold. i had started coughing, which felt better cuz i was coughing up whatever was stuck down in my chest. gross huh? i only had to miss ONE day at coffee bean, for calling in sick, in that whole 8 mos i worked there. but w/ these babies, i remember being sick at least once a month. hopefully it is building my immune system back up. or i will need to find another line of work! : (
i called my sister at lunch, but she hadn't gotten the bday card and moneys ameh and i sent her. then ameh called me, and said she needed to use my credit card to pay for her car repairs. dammit. i hope this isn't more than the thousand she said it would be. i hope she isn't just using that card like it is magical, as i usually do. ooh this is turning into a sticky wicket. why can't i say no to these people who keep asking me for money i don't have???
after work i made MORE of that spaghetti, but i had to put the microwave on the stove cuz that was the nearest plug. somehow half the downstairs outlets had shorted out. sucky.
eventually i got picked up by shamir, who had just turned 22, and we went to celebrate w/ amanda, carissa, shane, and dano. nate and white shane eventually joined us, the whole crew at...
THE NINE-O.
what were we thinking?
well it was free to get in. and people kept offering me drinks. sweet. i kept getting TOUCHED because it was a little toooo crowded at one point, and i almost beat up some girl named 'jenny' but dave helped sort that out, but it was fun, and i was glad to see them all. my neighbors were there celebrating 'drew's' bday. the best part was how amanda fearlessly used the camera flash to wield off unlikely bachelors... hehe. shamir left early to join in some sort of debauchery, and we left when they closed. oh what a site it was, us getting home. we were OUT of it. but all having fun and laughing, no drama. yay! we got back and shane was about to pass out next to terie on the couch, nate and white shane went up to wake up poor jordan, and there seemed to be drama starting in the kitchen. so i went back to the apartments behind us to see this guy who told me to come over. only he wasn't there. he called and said he wasn't going to come. but i stayed to hang out w/ two girls who were cool but i'd never met. somehow they knew a lot of people i knew though, and pete (the guy who vomited in my sink) and kris.
eventually everyone was leaving, and danielle offered me a ride home. i was honored but i didnt' need a ride cuz i was practically home already. so i was about to leave, still drunk, but kris said we could watch tv so we did. he has a black box. nothing really was on other than conan, and we ended up flipping channels and talking til almost 6am, when he fell asleep on the couch. he is really a nice guy. i think.
i came back and three peole were passed out on our couches, sooo cute, it is pretty roomy down there! i went to bed, and woke up just in time to go to my hospital appointments. i got an ultra sound, and i saw the cysts. they glow on the monitor, like fireworks kinda. then i had blood taken w/ the nicest blood taker i've ever met. i didn't even feel it and she talked to me straight through it, sooo nice. i hope if i ever do that again it will be w/ her. maybe i can donate if i'm not too toxic.
i want to be a doctor. i've always kinda wanted something in the field of healing, mostly children, but i was hemophobic my whole life. but with all that has been going on, i have kind of conquered that. maybe this was all for a reason.... maybe i won't be a dentist after all.. hehe.
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:: Monday, July 15, 2002 ::
oh it was cuz that stupid comment thing wasn't working i think... let's see...
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 1:28 AM [+] ::
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uh oh my page has NOT been publishing. what is wrong w/ this thang??? hehe.....
:: meggy spilled the "beans" at 1:20 AM [+] ::
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i also forgot to mention the roundabout in bakersfield. carr had us going around that a dozen times before directing me back off.... at the same place we got on. i was sooo dizzy, and james was singing a crazy crazy song....
today i slept in til noon. i haven't been feeling well again lately, so i wanted to get that last sleep in day before i have to start working again (tomorrow). so when i finally got up, jordan was raring to go (how the hell is that spelled?). we were off... to costco. i dropped my car off at the tire center to get my tires balanced and rotated and we spent almost an hour on a costco spree. they had yummy popsicle samples, and i ended up w/ a lot of good food, enough to hold me over til we move out i bet! i will be packing lunch to work from now on, to be frugal and so on : )
we took the stuff home to unpack it, and sat in the yard w/ the watermelon i'd cut up. i LOVE watermelon. especially when i get to eat it outside. we made a plan w/ shaun, then headed down to belmont shores to do a little... shopping....
i got too much stuff. i had store credit but really i went out of control as usual, and i will have to return SOMETHING. or else... jordan even got stuff. 'balloon pants' and a tshirt. we also went to coffeebean. i avoided fingerprints, cuz i always spend a ton of money on cds when i step into that place, but being down in that area was really nice and relaxing as usual. i will move there after i buy my beamer. you're all invited.
i love the trees around the cal state long beach campus. i dont know why. i just think that place smells great. i'm applying to a grad school there, in case i dont get into a usc program. anywho, then we went to the mall shaun works at to pick him up, but he was late getting off so we had time to wander around aimlessly then go to mervyns. i desperately need slippers for work, but NONE of them fit me. go figure. jordan bought a towel, and socks. what a loser. : )
shaun was FINALLY done, and we went to get peruvian food in cerritos. only to find that the peruvian food we were looking for was in long beach, and we were just confuse-ed. so we ended up at friday's. yay! the three of us had a blast as usual, talking nonsense. i miss shaun, i dont get to see him much. i dont see much of anyone but jordan, cuz he lives here : P hehe. shaun also mentioned that he has blogged about my brother (check some great alexisms in the friday july 12th entry mwahahha - i wanna quote shaun now "morning glories are like angry sparklers on crack" he is sooo right). i just now looked at it. i haven't read ANYONE's online entries in a long time. i go out of my way to stay off my computer if you haven't noticed. there is a lot i just dont want to think about and my computer is drenched in sour memories. eeeew. sticky.
i made jordan listen to chicago on the way back, and he practically jumped out of my car before i was even done parking at the house. but somehow i managed to get him back in it when i needed to drive all the way up to sunset and vermont-ish to drop mario tennis off at the blockbuster. i forgot it was due tomorrow. oops.
today was beautiful and fantastic and .... well now i'm doped up on robitussin honey flu and i need to get to bed before i start actin the fool. forgive me if i was supposed to call you this weekend, i haven't been home at all, but i am thinking about all of you, my beautiful friends. if i don't die from the black lung (ahem-ahem) then you will hear from me soon. ta ta!
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:: Sunday, July 14, 2002 ::
wow i have a lot to catch up on....
sunday... what did i do? can't really remember... we were going to go to the beach but i ended up taking cecilia's ice chests back to her place in lynwood, and we went to walmart to pick up some stuff for her camping trip in ensenada. i got a beautiful blue beach towel w/ green fishies on it. we watched the discovery channel, and i fell in love w/ a navy seal trainer. when i did get back home it was pretty late but we were still gonna go to the beach - until ian called and said it was cloudy. sooo instead i took alex to hollywood.
we spent a few hours at ridley's believe it or not, something i had never experienced. and i've lived here for four years!!! it was pretty fun, a good day of bonding w/ alex. we went to see the walk of stars and mann's chinese theater. he hadn't been here since the new mall opened so i took him in to see the elephants. he said they could get up and climb down, then walk all over LA causing mass destruction. grrrreat. afterwards we went to in-n-out, his favorite hamburger place. he was 'starving'. we picked up MORE videos on the way back (i own sooo many videos now - all i need is my own VCR! hehe), and a n64 racing game. and rented mario tennis. alex had been DYING to do that. so we got back and played for a bit, and continued to play it off and on til the day he left...
monday i woke up feeling pretty crappy. i have been coming down w/ a cold and my abdominal pains are back in full force. not to mention PMS CRAMPS.... grrr. and i got an email that would normally have brightened my day but i didn't want to let it. i don't want to let anything make me too happy anymore. just calm consistency for me. it was nice to hear from this person but i was so confused at WHY they were suddenly making contact, so i just had to stop wondering and take it as it was. just an email from someone i miss talking to. it was pleasant.
so monday was the day alex and i watched tv, played tennis, and waited for jordan to bring back his car keys. so we could get my board out of his car to go to the beach. meanwhile we had lunch at denny's and hung out. but we didn't end up going to the beach til 6ish. it was FREEZING but alex was brave and went in!!! i took lots of pictures, and even got some good pics of this school of dolphins just past the breakers.... sooo amazing. afterwards, we went back home and i made dinner. again. mac and cheese and chips and salsa. go me. i even cut up some fruits. my mac was the best ever, according to alex. much better than my 'mac n cheese soup' as he was calling my last attempt. i used less milk, and mixed the butter and milk in w/ olive oil and pepper on the noodles before even adding the cheese. it was utter perfection. i don't believe it even needed the cheese but i knew he'd think i was nuts if i didn't add it. i was happy to see him finish the WHOLE pan of it. : )
then we went BOWLING at kona lanes. this time wasn't quite as fantastic, even though we ended up w/ two lanes. cuz our LANES kept breaking. i am convinced it was jake's ball. it had his name on it and kept stopping up the lane. and jordan was also bad luck cuz it was usually his turn after jake's and his ball would get stuck w/ jake's. nothing but trouble!!! jordan had a tantrum cuz he wasn't winning again. terie has some sort of secret weapon. alex loves bowling. jake is up to something. how DID we all fit in my car?
tuesday was a DISNEYLAND day. ooh my favorite thing to do on a tuesday. too bad it was SO HOT all day long. it was fun though, alex and i had a blast. we even got to walk over to downtown disney for dinner at the house of blues. our waitress was really cool, and the hostess was asking me if i knew her friends at usc (as usual i had alex all decked out in usc gear). the guy at the gate was telling me about all the bands that would be at california adventure this next month. who wants to come w/ me???
i want a lilo dashboard hula doll.
a bit after we got home ian and clare brought out their surprise - a going away party for alex! it was a toxic green cake and balloons and these little ball popper toys, and a beautiful song by clare. don't ask me to repeat it. alex got all embarrassed and acted like he didn't know any of us. alex and i watched movies, then went to sleep. so sad.....
wednesday was his last day in LA. i made him eat more cake, then we went to the airport. he was holding my arm the whole way.
: ( i was pretty sad to see him go. i took him up to the gate and wouldn't you know - i forgot to have him take his belt off. so he set off the alarm and we had to get checked before going to the gate. the had him take off his shoes and everything, and he seemed pretty anxious about the whole thing. he is a shy guy, and he was already stressed about leaving. he kept promising it would work if he packed me on the plane in his bag. or we could share a seat! hehe. i hope he's ok.... i sat w/ him til his plane was about to leave. i miss him a lot already.
i came back to work after that, and when i got home jorge came over. we hung out til jordan came home and i helped them play wiffle ball by being the ball girl and chasing it down the street. i like that job. i had an iced soy latte for dinner. mike a. came by and watched a little tv w/ us, but i think my papaya facial mask scared him away. after trying to sleep i found out that beaches was on and i stayed up til 3am watching it. and i cried of course. a few times. damn that movie.
thurs i was pretty tired at work, but i left early cuz i was going to BAKERSFIELD!!! i had barely spoken to ben or jeff so i figured i was going alone. i left them both a message then went to get gas. i was just gonna meet up w/ james, carr, and tamay there. and as i was heading towards the freeway, both jeff and ben called me separately. jeff had seen a car accident where a guy flew through the window, and ben wanted my extra ticket. so i headed to ellendale to pick him up.
let me tell you how hot this trip was. with the window open, i felt like i was driving into a gigantic blow drier. i took a shower when i left and my hair was dry by gorman. i had a great time talking to ben, getting reacquainted. we have a past if you know what i mean, short but sweet. i am still very attracted to him but i am completely afraid of guys now. i have no intentions of pursuing anyone as more than a friend. i admire him, cuz he is a free spirit. he spends a lot of time just traveling around, doing things i enjoy doing, and he likes some good music. the time i have spent with him has always been very interesting, full of surprises. last summer we went up mullholland w/ him and his friend, and it was somehow different than any other time i'd been up there. more adventurous i'd say. i think we got lost. then we went to this restaurant on melrose, goodfellas, where they let us eat at a couch in the back. we ate tons, and fell asleep for a while, it was sooo cozy. we also went to santa monica beach, then wandered around and met some cinema professor from vancouver, canada. he asked us questions, and filmed it to show his students. he was on his way up north. a VERY interesting british fellow.
anyhow, we stopped at subway on the way up and had a picnic lunch on this mound of grass outside the gas station near gorman. or in gorman. it was the middle of nowhere, and the ladies working there were really nice and reminded me of people from my hometown area. go figure. ben covered my dinner as well as the drink and gum on the way back, AND paid for his ticket the night that i gave it to him (unlike SOME people i get tickets for). he even gave me a beer before we went into the concert.
speaking of the concert.... ohhh the concert. i love tool. and i love tool in concert. i was RIGHT THERE In front of the stage, for almost the entire show. i had my hair and earrings tugged, and my clothes nearly ripped off, but i stayed put. some nasty guy w/ a munchkin handlebar mustache kept rubbing up on me, and lots of guys were trying to talk to me, but i was there for tool. so i got annoyed and kept moving around til i found a good spot. the craziest was when they played aenima and everyone went INSANE (including me), and i lost ben, but it was a really positive environment for the most part. ohhh i was having such a good time. everything they played was great, and the visuals were amazing as expected (mostly lateralus-inspired). H was also fantastic, as was everything they played - almost everything i'd hoped to hear!!!! i am SO glad we went! i will try to finda set list on line so i dont have to type up all the song names but i can't find one yet so i may have to try to remember myself. at the end of the concert i helped some guy find his shoe and when i found it he gave me a huge hug, even though i was soaking wet in my own sweat and that of a dozen skin headed rockers. now THAT is appreciation.
afterwards carr took us to this smalltown bar, where they played 80s hair band music and the floor was littered w/ peanut shells. what a perfect ending to our bakersfield night. i changed into my other shirt, and had a TON of iced tea. james went off on rock music, which was great cuz he has immense knowledge of the field as far as i'm concerned. they all scooted over so ben could sit next to me - i think they thought he was my date. he was pretty gosh darn sweet to me but i dont think it was a date. i am just glad to have him as a friend : )
on the way back, we stopped for soda cuz we were both pretty tired. the guy at this gas station was ridiculous, missing his two front teeth, and talking like elvis. he made me laugh right out loud. what a night. anyhow, it was ben's job to keep me awake but he hadn't slept the night before so he was falling asleep while talking to me. i made him put his chair back cuz i said he had better be comfy if he was gonna sleep. he thought we should have gotten a room... hmmm. hehe. i sang to myself on the way back and when we got back to LA he magically woke up. he said he was a bad friend. when i dropped him off he told me he wanted to hang out and i should call him. suuuure. i've heard that before. we'll see though.... i need distractions, five boyfriends at a time are necessary to keep my mind off the one i can't have. what a terrible thing to think huh?
friday i went to work at 2 after missing my friday appointment (i slept through my alarm somehow and when i woke up i was in a lot of pain again, dammmmmit). cecilia sent me home w/ hot wings and bagles. she is tryin to plump me up!
people called me last night inviting me to parties but i wasn't in the mood. i wanted to stay here and chill w/ jordan. he really bonded w/ alex, they were inseparable, and i like anyone who alex likes. : )
today i got my oil changed and then went to see road to perdition w/ my aunt in the valley. another hot day. the movie was pretty good, except neither of us found tom hanks to be a believable gangster assassin. paul newman was FANTASTIC though. her dog was snoring all through the movie. almost as amusing as this lady who came in halfway through, hands full of snacks, calling out for 'peter'. 'peter i can't see in the dark!' 'Peter where are you?' then she walks to the center of the aisle, at the center of the theater, and says it again 'peter!'. we were dying. everyone sitting near me. she was ridiculous.
btw jude law is hot, even w/ a balding head. his name exudes hot sexual prowess. i want him. mmmm. hehe.
speaking of hot, i may just have to watch that dragon movie cuz christian bale is in it....
my aunt took me back to her house and made the best chicken strips, 'basgetti, garlic bread, salad (i made the dressing), fruit plates, and tea. i am still full. i love her cooking. i have sooo many leftovers. we watched friends and MIB. and a little james bond, sean connery style.
shamir just told me he is having his bday get together at moose's in pasadena on dollar drink night. which means CHEAP DATE. hehe. i most likely won't drink. well more than one or two drinks... and i will probably ask a hot guy to come along, just to look at. but most likely it'll just be me and my pals. woo woo! : )
as for tomorrow - i should get my tires rotated at costco if the center is open. then i have to use my gap gift cards and get me some new pants that aren't so baggy. i start The Pill as my hormonal treatment and who knows what this will do but it's worth a try. i have to check the mail at my dad's to get my phone bill. blahblahblah. mail off my sister's bday card, w/ a check for $100 and three gift cards (two from my aunt). i hate when she has to worry about money. i never remember to send cards though. i'm a looooser.
nuf for now. : ) hope i can keep up from now on!
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